“Grow up.” This isn’t the first time I heard my mom probably say this to me but this is the first time that I felt so offended by her words. I didn’t wake up at the right side of the bed. The moment I woke up I asked my mom where she slept because I woke up earlier and she wasn’t beside me. To which she replied with a booming angry tone of voice. I stopped breathing. I just woke up and I didn’t know what to do with her anger. So I decided to sleep it off. I woke up late. Later than I wanted to. But instead of feeling down I did my best not to, did my handwriting/ meditation practice to set the mood for the day, also finished some workloads and found out at around 11am that my older sister left with me the cash sales from yesterday. I honestly hadn’t processed that she would. I was supposedly awake earlier but decided not to because I allowed my mom to stop me with her anger. And so, I was intent to write this blog post to rant about how my mom should’ve thought through the “Grow up.” statement because primarily she’s one of the reasons why I don’t have the assertiveness I need in life. When I tried to tell her what course I wanted in College she redirected me to another Course. She said try this instead, you can learn that along the way, true, I can learn that but the timing wouldn’t be the same (or will there be another timing). I guess that’s one of the boons and banes of life. That everything is possible. And therefore we can be a lot of things unless we decide to pursue just one.
I was so eager a few moments ago about planning how to go through with my Review and my motivation just dropped a few notches down but as I’m letting this all out and putting my thoughts in perspective I’m gaining back the courage to pass MY Board Exam. I stand back up and learn from this. CONSTRUCTIVE CRITICISM.
- CHECK THE THINGS I GET FROM OLDER SISTER.
- SAY SORRY TO OLDER SISTER FOR NOT CHECKING AND NOT LISTENING WHEN SHE HANDED IT OVER TO ME.
- DO NOT ASSUME.
- CHECK THOROUGHLY.
Hahaha This ‘Changing Your Life Through Handwriting’ is so powerful that within 3 hours everything conjured up and made me practice the principle I wanted to learn from Letter ‘Bb’. Phew.